let me blog earli today.. cuz sth happened in sch. anywayz, i'm already at home now.

so today.. the class was vy late for maths tut den tcher is vy angry with us.. used like the next half an hour to scold. thru out the scolding, i did kind of pay attention but i was also doing my own stuffs. cuz i find the scolding irrelevant to me. i was this little bit late only.. and was also late for the first time? and guess wad? she's so kind till the extent tat we still have room for negotiation for the punishment to not be today. so we were to stay back on tues for extra class as 'punishment'. wad i really find it disgusting is the apology by aisyah. seriously cant stand it. sounds like bullshit and insincere to me. hm. i think many of them are si xing bu gai one la. so.. all that they are thinking just now are just crap. face it. =X unless their action prove me otherwise. i hve the urge to msg her that she shldnt have any expectation on us (i mean some of us) and like wad she've said and wat i tot so too, we shld be the ones to incharge of ourselves since we are the ones doing As this yr.

well, although i'm also quite used to scolding since sec 3? i'm still quite disturbed by her scolding just now.. cuz another thing that she said is super ultra irrelevant to me. she said that we like to bargain on the amt of hw to be passed up even for the dec hols hw. i'm not the one who bargained and thru out my study life, i'm trained to accept the command frm tcher and less likely to think of bargaining. even if there's alot of hw, i'll only tell myself see how much i can manage until the last min. i'm quite sure that even if the deadline is extended, some of them will also not finish one. so wad's the pt? watever.


hmm. frm the start of sch till now, i do feel that i'm more energised during tut and lectures. may be it is bcuz i've learnt how to conserve my energy.. and a feelin that is within me makes me feel awake. it starts with the letter 'h'. u may guess that it is happines.. well, happiness do make u feel energised but it only has a short term effect and happiness usually doesnt last long, does it? hmm. the ans is hatred. maybe it is an unpleasant word and feeling but it keeps me going. of cuz, rational shld be the top priority of anything. wad i mean is that only a small dose of hatred is needed. my definition for small dose of hatred is that u hate / dislike that thing or person but you are also reluctant to damage it or hurt that person.


to end this post, i really really hope tat i can finish alot hw! wish me luck. :)