hmm. ytd afternoon is quite a special one as compared to the rest that i had. went to zay's place and chit-chat. we are still the same as usual like last time. there is no problem in speaking to each other. i oso went back to prps instead of tms. gotta a red packet frm MLHT. was ashamed abt myself cuz i nv even brought mandarin orange or cny card. i'm so bu xiao! haix. den at night, cg came to trim eyebrow and had a hair cut. she looks more refreshed now. gdgd.. new yr new beginning ma.. haha.. just hope that she is really ok with her hair length. not vy short la.. but maybe she doesnt like leh?

but my day actually was quite screwed up too.. and i meant long-term screwed up. i suddenly rmb abt his stuffs and hope it wasnt true. the second thing is impactful. i dont quite dare to tell them.. even thou parts of it are conjured by myself, i'm still quite sure of my own analysis. yea. it shocked me seriously.

第一次是我知道会被放弃所以我先放弃。
第二次是我无缘无故被放弃可我不想放弃。
我已经做了我最后能做的。
可是我强烈的预感和你的决心
告诉我那张卡会是一张寄不出去的卡。
真的有必要做到这样吗？
我不明白为什么。真的不明白。
难道说以前所有的一切都是假的吗？
我伤心。我更心痛。
我很想知道真相。
我很想在事情发生前去找你。

这种被放弃的游戏几时才会停止？
已经有两个了……



哦。还有就是zayzay变了。
变得野。不过，还是那个我认识的zay。
或许这个转变是好的。
从她的语气听起来，我反而变得很沉。
我们互相交换性格了吗？
哈哈哈。
我想我变得很沉是环境促成的。
她变得很野是伯母放纵的关系。
可是，我的野性还是存在的。只是要假装变乖而已。
况且，我也有点受够自己的野了。

alright. enough of myself. there was also someone whose day (ytd) was short-term screwed up.
all movies' tics sold out.
had a strong ego bf who do things before asking.
who prefers mahjiong to her.
who likes to decide everything.
maybe she can 迁就 him. but base on her character i doubt so la.

我想，也许我对你有太大的偏见。
总觉得你做的都是错的。
虽然我经常唠叨你，但幸好我不是你妈。
如果我是你妈，我一定少活几年。(touch wood! tml is cny le.)
所以我已经放弃一半的你。那一半的你是很不听话的你。
我才不要自讨苦吃呢。
我想你是不会理会我的放弃的。
你应该已经早就习惯了吧。
为什么会这样说，
是因为我突然理解了小时候不和父母住在一起，
对你的潜意识来说已造成了伤害。
以前不明白为什么没有父母的爱的孩子会失去爱别人的能力。
现在我终于明白了。
你的“被遗弃”和我的“放弃”是不是给你一样的感受？
但话说回来，如果我是你妈，
我应该不会让你小时候发生的事再次发生。
可是当我越是了解这一点，我越有可能是不好的朋友。
因为我会放纵你的任意。
我想，以后你的那个他就是那个会带你去放风筝的人……


on the cny eve, i dont wanna talk abt sad things le. we shall all be happy and always be happy!! chEerS!! happy cny ppl! jia you in collecting ang bao wor! haha..

see ya!