yesterday a bit bo eng.

yesterday night is actually quite terrible. my aircon is not cooling enough and hence, i didn't have a proper sleep. in the end i had a headache while working. luckily, it is towards the end of the day. so, i must sleep early tonight. ^^

so... i can't remember the thing i want to continue to blog about. haix. i know i know, i'm old.

anyway, to add on a bit more to the comments for the NDP, i must say that the backdrop 'lights' are really beautiful. it is made up of a thin sheet of metal (i think) which can transmit light and form images. they have funky and cool images which really can change your perspective towards NDP. although it is so contemporary, it doesn't give you the zhuo4 zhuo4 feeling unlike SOME PEOPLE who tried to dance hip hop to draw a connection with us, the youngsters. and in between those big screens of 'light' there are many spot lights which give a shimmering effect like the stars. all these give a wow effect!

hm. sorry for the randomness. let me define shadow. a shadow follows its master and only have the shape of its master. well, i don't really like to go clubbing in the past, even now and in the future is because i don't want to be a shadow. i don't want to follow 'some people whom i don't like' and receive the same kind of perspective as my 'master' from other people. they thought i'll be the same as my 'master' bla bla bla. this is exactly what a shadow is. it doesn't have colour and content. not saying my 'master' is not good for me to model from but i just don't like the way they look at me. they give me the why-are-you-here-look, some thing like 'being extra'. why must i make myself so uncomfortable and in the end, the master has to look after its shadow? WHY? this leads to the next point whereby i want to say why i don't like them.

ok, i know this will offen many people. but i'm sorry. firstly, i really admire people who can drink but not DRUNK. you got yourself drunk then so be it, your poor friend(s) have to try to protect you from any situation that can happen in a club. for instance, groping, raping, fighting and falling. can anyone tell which of the four is not serious enough? the friends themselves will then unable to enjoy. then, some will tell me but they get used to it already. fine, then what about all the unglam acts, especially if those who are drunk are girls? to me, it is really disgraceful.

next, the guys. i know they go there for drinking, dancing and something else. i don't really care. but, they became so fan4 jian4. i thought they are the ones who have ego and pride? but they enjoy being toyed around by the girls. i'm serious. this is so that they have A chance to talk to the girls and have SOME hope of being their bf. i ALMOST threw a cup of ice at someone that night but i didn't. i emptied the ice on the grass beside me but he continued and i wanted to throw the cup at him. please, be more tactical, NEVER EVER have the feeling of being desperate when talking to a potential partner! WE CAN SENSE! these are the people whom i don't like to follow or even look at. hence, i never remember even a face in that club, i mean that group of people who 'surrounded' us. everything they want or going to do is printed on their face. surprisingly, i can see those words but not their face feature. LOL. and it was pretty dark there. i'm sorry. OOPS. =x anyway, THAT girl has some responsibilities as well. if she isn't so friendly and not so sexy, these MAY NOT happen. haha.

right. i'm listening to the song 'tuo1 diao4' now.

ah, the best part comes. i shouted 'THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY STUPID!!!' at the dance floor until all people beside me looked at me. can you imagine how loud i were when i had to compete with the music? all the above justified that statement. he who did not understand, understood it completely when i almost threw the ice. =) i'm glad. also, that's the most relaxing part during the clubbing night because i get to shout and most probably the people there thought i was drunk so the stares didn't matter. =>>>


lastly, i guess those night activities can never be healthy. i hope this time round i am not being bias and have not stereotyped or generalized it. i seriously have always tried to argue for clubbing is fun and cool but i failed. this became especially so when i saw all the evidences. but right now, i still want to lie to myself and ignore the evidences. wth am i trying to do? i also don't know...


Ah! i know. trying to fit into her lifestyle. to fit into some environment or be the same as your friend, you must try to understand. hence, i want to ignore in order to understand and fit in. RIGHT. now, i know.