i have no choice but to write / type it down. it helps me in concentrating after my thoughts are penned down. i will eventually forget the things i wrote down as my memories are stored somewhere. but some times, i will also forget what that post is about since i can't make certain things obvious. it is very ok as those things are usually meant to be forgotten. =)

i thought this friend has forgotten me. then, i slowly forget about him too. we can be said as quite close in the past. however, although we did meet up several months ago, we did not speak to each other since then until yesterday. those words that he told me should be meant for another girl. any girl in the right mind won't believe him actually. they shouldn't also. haha.

there is another him whom i missed a lot. he used to keep something from me and refused to tell me despite me forcing him. haha. a gentleman who will not talk behind some one's back and hence, refuse to fill me up with some important information. how could he... he seriously has disappeared for ages, went mia longer than anyone has. each time i pass by his place, i'll wonder where he is now although i know that he is busy yet enjoying life now. miss him lots~ i have a strong feeling that he'll leave here without me knowing. is that just a 'feeling' or is that my fear...?
"Where Are You??"


lastly, i disappeared from some one's life too. she made me gain experiences which allow me to understand how jian ning felt. what a sad but valuable experience! but i'm can connect to human feelings more now.



don't feel weird if i blogged several times a day. some of my brain archives are recalled suddenly. there is no one to speak to and no appropriate person. this is my only avenue.. :]