the weather now seems very fine.
but i guess i'll stay at home.

i'm listening to Jay's Ni Bi Cong Qian Kuai Le.
feel like going to k-box all of a sudden.
i've lost touch in going to k-box for ages.

thursday was happening.
neither will friday lose to it.
all i wanted is to find a place to sit and chillz.
maybe i should learn from mk.
she used to say 'take a chill pill man~' haha.


let me think what had happened yesterday.
oh! to start with, a buffet dinner at Siam Kitchen.
green curry, red curry and chicky wing are not favoured enough.
satays, fish cake, tomyum soup are nice.
i rate it 7 out of 10.
because irene came after her work, she missed the buffet, we went to mac and chatted.
evelyn left and raymond is leaving, soon to come, in 2 weeks' time, irene will be leaving too!
miserable me. i don't even know if i want to continue to have lunch with the rest of them or not.
Zzzz..
then, irene sent me to boat quay.
there are people whom i don't want to see. i can treat them as invisible.
i didn't want to go home as well.
chamber is a no-no. you'll get squeezed inside.
then, i went to this indian pub and sit on its bass.
the ladies wore their traditional costumes and dance. they look pretty.
anyway, i realised they are not local indians.
i thought i went in just for the sake of seeing, experiencing and for fun.
however, i think i started the trend and the next two pubs i went are indian pubs too. haha.
we merely stayed inside for 3 minutes at each of them the maximum.
the whole night consist merely pub hopping at boat quay and it lasted for 4 hours?
DOTS.
thereafter i went to one fulleton alone.

the above is the itinerary for the night. HOW exciting it is.





i have many thoughts and feel for THE night. i simply had a great time from buffet to mac. very very high man! at the mac, i was not allowed to leave. it is fine though, i just got to give phuture a miss. the trade-off is more than fair. i may not see them again while phuture will always be there. luckily, jian ning was not upset also. i'll make up for him next time by telling him new story. =) lolx.





for them, there is nothing much to say larh. it is just that i don't like them.





i was fed-up till i became not fed up last night. let me explain my emotion trail. it starts with decision to expectation to be patient if my mood was good or not patient if my mood was bad or/& i'm sick. usually it ends here. but yesterday night was the time i'm troubled and need to chill. never a time like this for this whole year i think, until this couple of days. i reach to the last stage whereby i start to give up.

it is time to WAKE up! the possiblity of having the correct mood, time and good company at club and pub is close to zero. the exception will be the kenneth's birthday celebration at timbre and with QH at mambo night. another may be if i were to be at phuture last night.

i've already start to give up.
who on earth will play until so miserable?


i give up on her.


i was given up.


i thought i can give up on my life easily. it not exactly like this. i needed some time to think about my problems.. at one fulleton, i merely rest and just leave all things until the last half an hour before i was about to leave the place. i did come to a conclusion and is satisfied with it. after that, i went back to boat quay. maybe they are still there. i search all the pubs which are still available on both sides of the road. my phone died on me. the best way would be to walk on the road.

i walked safely and kept by the side. but there came this car which zoomed towards me at 80km/hr? and the road is darn narrow as both sides of the road were parked with cars. it'll be impossible, too late and extremely dangerous for me to move out of the road. i estimated and had no choice but to lean (stick) back to the car beside me and pray hard. at the moment, the distance between me and the car is only 10 cm? a slight mistake by the driver or IF i'm drunk and not notice it, i'll be gone now. ha! at that second also, i realized i'm not so prepared to die. maybe i just dont want to die so lamely. i will never tell this incident to my parents. if not, i'll most probably be locked at home on friday nights and weekends. lolx.




don't be f-up and no need to apologised for the night. you should know that i'm getting used to this buay organised friends of yours. like what i've said. i reached the point whereby i've gave up and numbed. i've overcame the stage of being impatient. i will say that they are a good company to go with. it is just me who is always unlucky to even encounter the first time when they are disorganised. it is just me...

i guess if i were to give you a hug yesterday, perhaps you'll be less f-up.








i wished i could have taken some photos. however, my stupid bro left our camera with his friend.