i forget what i want to blog liao. zzz.. i think i have a memory that lasts for a second only.





alright, i shall go about randomly...



ah! xingwen has confirmed it. no roses can be planted in singapore except for the several smaller species which are not as pretty. =( actually i have planned to work as a part time florist after i finish my retail job. haha. i know that there is a flora shop at whitesands that hires part-timers before valentine's day. i saw their notice this year... it was too bad that i was working elsewhere.. i'm going to try for next year! they said that they will teach you how to wrap a bouquet. so cool sia! although the pay is miserable i get to learn something i want to learn. i told my mum about this and she says that i want to learn everything.. hahaha. i curious what.. and flowers are so beautiful and colourful. it brightens people's days!



to learn more is good, but it is also a disadvantage for me because i don't specialized.. it is like a flirt who leave his 'love' around like that.. but can never put all his mind and effort on one girl (one thing for me) for life. i'm just another typical women who is fickle minded.

i want to learn piano too! i remember how gf used to teach me something else... did she? i think she did right. i did bug her on piano before.. but she just shrugged it off. =PpP BAD Girl. i believe jn will bug her soon cause' he just bought a keyboard. haha. eerm.. one at a time first.. i think i still haven open jay's Secret score. haha. it is still wrapped up. yarh. i've checked. it is still NOT opened. i also haven watch jay's last concert dvd. till a point i realize i buy jay's thing is just for collection and also because i'm used to buy his stuffs. everything anything about him MUST buy, there is no need to consider if i should buy. if i will consider, i will only think of how to get money. haha. jay rocks big time!



this leads to me having something will hengky's nick - "For ideas regarding my christmas present, refer to my display picture." his display picture is the doraemon electri guitar which jay played with in his new song "shi2 guang1 ji1". i think he doesn't have the rights to say that when i haven't even requested it from anyone yet. haha. our common friends will agree that i should be the one receiving that guitar more than him.. haha. anyway, it is sold in city hall.. at the building beside funan it mall.. it costs about 200+. my friend told me that he heard the wood used to manufacture the guitar is quite poor. but, do i care? i can't even play.. haha. it is again, for collection nia~ collect collect collect and get happy when i see all my collections. +D and hengky is quite rich de.. don't snatch from me this poor girl leh! kekeke...




i have another plan after being a florist. i want to work in tour agency. hehehe.. for that, i have a purpose too. i guess these are the reasons for me to study part time and indirectly becoming my CCAs liao.. to do try out all the fun things while studying.



to be random, i realise that long island tea is expensive. it is very ordinary and hence, i thought it is cheap. but it is not and it is hengky's favourite. i think the illusion is because my brain mixed it up with green tea. haha. i always have the tendency to pronounce it as long island green tea. hahaha.. that's why if you can observe next time, i read the three words very slowly with a bit of difficulty.. unless i tell myself "it is long island tea" for maybe 10 times before i order the drink. haha..


to myself: aiya. don't want to apply then don't think liao. want to apply then don't be so ai mai ai mai. my previous decision is i dont want to think about it liao. my Final decision is, fine, it is merely one more item in my wallet. -.- lolx. if later don't like then cancel la. as simple as it is. hehehe.. just like how i cancel my cp account. my bro even suggested to be the 'guardian' for me. lolx. funny sia. i don't find if he suggested to pay all my bills thereafter. i'll be sooooo happy and grateful to him. LOL.



i like several phrases of lyrics in jay's new songs.


wah lao. can tell me anything when i am working but please do not talk about business ideas. my soul will just float away from my body totally!! we have our goals in mind. we just need mentors or experience. research only will not suffice.




i define sissy as a guy who is indecisive. he whom can't decide, don't want to decide or don't dare to decide. don't the above three criteria fits female well instead of guys? of course, there are more criteria for a guy to be a sissy fully but right now, i want to highlight the above first. face the reality. or if you prefer, face the music. you face the 'music' every week at clubs what. (haha. ok. lame i know. ) to all, anyone who doesn't agree with my definition of a sissy, please tag! or rather, i'll appreciate you more to tag how much you agree with me.
to keep things big or small, is unisex. males, females, lesbians, gays, transverses and sissies all are applicable. to keep things small is = to be a real responsible person instead of an indecisive person. how can an indecisive guy (partially = sissy) keep things small when he can't decide, don't want to decide or don't dare to decide and hence hurt so many people along the way and all the time? PLEASE advice me. to hurt someone continuously, there can never be peace.

i believe no matter how strong my justification is, he'll just ignore. i will, on the other hand, continue to observe and 'laugh at' gf. haha. read clearly, it is laugh, a happy one. not to mock, a sarcastic one. i believe my laughter will cheer her up. hahaha. most probably, she'll laugh along too. 0=)


i know why there can never be peace. j hurt me badly. my girls agree on how sad the whole incident is. actually, during our conversation, there is not need to label her as j. but it's ok. all about j doesn't matter anymore. what i can say is that the leftover anger until now, has become one good source energy to boost me up and be more optimistic and brave. nothing worse than that has happened so far. i believe there will be nothing too in the future. =)







there's always a ball of fire in me....




too many friends make one drifts away from one's good friends. it a trade-off. we have no choice. but i want to stay close.. it is again on how i prioritize. anyway, seems like i've misunderstood wy. never mind, our group will reunite again soon. ^^.v