last day at work is saddening. i had to leave a place where i went to every weekdays for 7 months. haix. =x this made me realize that it is difficult for people to migrate be it temporary or permanently even if the grass is greener at another place. hmm. move on, move on..



like i had said, i was doing work for mk on tues and wed's night. more night activities thereafter.

wanted to go dblo on thurs but i was too tired already.. wait for mk when she free then go with her.. hahaha. i went to river island, raffles city to see the bag that cg wants. mk and i agreed that the orange one is cute. but i'm still deciding on my budget. tsk tsk tsk. how ah.. zzz.. when my major source of income is gone, i can't plan and have to be more careful with my spending. haixx.. let me think think first.

then i came home for dinner! yay~ very long never eat at home le. mum cooked salmon. the teriyaki sauce tastes like restaurant's. i think she bought it la. must be. hahaa.. then i stare at the salmon for awhile and realize it is quite appealing. it is pink on the inside and orange at the outside. colourful right. hehehe.

eat finish liao, then happy happy go online check email. suddenly, kc talked to me.
KC: never go dblo meh?
me: never, too tired liao.
KC: mai tu liao, go my friend house play cards.
me: ok lor.
lol. met more new friends there. wah, kc and jz lost about 80 bucks in total sia.. they play big several times. i only play 50 cents through out. haha. i won a few times blackjack lor cuz jz changed card with me. got once damn funny. he changed wrong card with me then in the end both of us got 19 points which is equal to not changing. lolx.

anyway, jz kinda cheated the banker(nicholas) by dropping his money below the table.. they said nicholas saw it. however, he never say anything. after observing so many friendships and people, i really don't know how they work sia. they appear to be quite good friend but nicholas is like always kana bullied. in front of other people, they are like a group of 4. within themselves, it is like 3 against 1. zzz. i'm puzzled. well, i reached home at 6+ in the morning. it is weird to see students going to school while i'm on the car going home. haha.


then i woke up late at 130 (friday) for my lunch appt. rushed to buy chicken essence for HT. she was sick. it is not the MC kind 'cause she specifically said that she was sick. well, she ain't sick anymore. she's recovering. =D last friday i met her too out of luck. she still lacks her high optimistic energy so i hope that the chicken essence will give her more energy. haha. we chatted on many many things such as me wanting to go and work in a floral shop. that's her interest too. she wrote in my graduation contact book and it is like 8 years ago? haha. an unusual interest that caught my attention.



hm. here comes the interesting part.

after school in the same day, i didn't go for mj session. sad. =( they changed to drinking suddenly. so i met them at one of the ulu pub at BQ. there was another girl. hehe. good. neek opened 1 chivas bottle. for the second bottle, we shared martel. i never even drink a lot but i still share lor. like that only, 20 bucks gone. zzz. it is yi chen's policy to not get drunk even though she paid. haha. i was sitting facing the bar and the pathway to toilet and a outdoor balcony. isn't it normal for me to face that direction for most of the times? so i saw neek and that girl kissing at the balcony when they were smoking. wah, last time go club got show to watch. now, go pub also got show to watch. lolx. BUT, that idiot never concentrate one lor. about half a minute he saw me watching at them and he stopped. he really li hai sia. we were in a perpendicular position he still can see.

then he came back tell me don't jealous. =.= what is there to jealous about. he's just only my friend. he has his privacy and freedom to himself. then the girl sitting beside me was talking to him about don't know what la. i only heard his reply 'cause he purposely emphasize to me "what? my bed? no way when yi chen is around." then the girl turn and told me "3 lar." wth sia. do i look like i'm the same kind as her? i think the girl kana rejection from neek and she turned to kelvin. they did their thing at the balcony and at the stairway which is outside the pub and obstruct the way of an indian going up to an indi pub. LOL. damn funny. i like kelvin's new hair style. he looks outstanding and matured.

neek, yinghao and me left first as neek gotta hand in homework today and wanted to share the cab fare. ha. he made him sat in front and talked to me as though yinghao can't hear him. neek started to gao bai and told me he doesn't want to fool around with me. blah blah blah... i refused to look at him through out the way home although he asked me too.. even when we were talking at the stairway of an overhead bridge i refused to also. he has a glid tongue but i'm not stupid also. eye contact is the weakness of many people, so is mine. i know i'm rude but i'll look everywhere and anywhere except for his face. =) i was nice to let him hold my hand for about 10 minutes?

among all the things we talked, i finally said something off my heart. i said that to tell me so many things about himself is the greatest mistake he made. for twice in a night, he said he doesn't feel like fooling around when i'm present. hm. read it properly and think critically. doesn't he sounds like he will fool around when i'm physically not beside him? i think that's what he will do larh. he asked is it because i think he's childish and is a player? i replied childish, no. player, yes. he offered to change. but that is him. to like someone, is to accept that person. furthermore, there is a chinese saying that a leopard never changes its spots. i also said that i don't like people who smoke. his reason was he only smokes when he drinks. come on, i've heard this excuse since eon years, try something new.

at the bridge, he request a peck at the cheek. seriously speaking, a peck at the cheek is nothing big deal. however, i rejected his request. there shouldn't be even a slight progress between us. if there was once, there will be twice. i recalled that i blogged something several months ago about breaking his heart and letting him feel regretful for his behaviour right? i didn't expect it to come so fast. still thought it will be when he's in ns or after ns. i think it is the kissing that pushed him to that. oh well, i'm surprised that my replies to his questions are so solid. i think it is because i'm well prepared for this already. haha.

zzz. i think it is my fault to begin with. he is way too comfy with me already.. hence, he can tell me all the absurb things he did. too comfy..... clement was like that too. william.. not sure. haix. i'm only being myself when i'm with my friends. tsk. haix. like that i cannot have guy friends liao lor. ok la. kc & clique, hengky & clique and kobe & clique are still my guy friends. ha. hmm. not too bad.


if neek die die wants to go steady also can. he'll be my playmate. player and player who come together are called playmates. LOL. i won't be serious. i can do what val used to do. not a problem. in a way, i changed for hime leh. see, i so noble. change to a worse person. lolx.

the song 'take a bow' suits him.


hm. enough of him. one more is coming. my company's dj - dt. i thought i can pick up dj skills from him so i didn't mind exhanging number with him. he is kinda weird. he is doing things half half. he kept on ask me for a date. nvm, is fine. when? valentines' day! then, he say no special meaning to it. wa kao. you tel me can believe or not? he suggested crusing around singapore or high beam at people who were making out in the car on that day. the second one is fun i think. LOL.



zzz. i wish i can donate all these lan tao hua to li shean sia. maybe to her, it is not lan. ha. i dunno?