been quite busy recently to update my blog.

yes, i'm officially 20 years old one week ago.
have not written any wishlist since... don't know when. she knows. they know.
'cause i know wishlist never come true.
for small things, it is good that they come as a gift.
for the rest, i know i'll get them myself ultimately.
i never believe in wishes. i'm just a person with no faith.
ben said wishes never come through because i don't take them seriously. lols. maybe.


4 celebrations within 8 days. be it my birthday or not.
few months ago, i was already thinking about it. don't really like it. it feels weird to have people singing birthday song for you, looking at you making wishes and blow the candle. totally feel uneasy. i don't enjoy this kind of attention eh? hehe. it is just like among us, i'm either the one pushing or lagging behind. 'standing in front or the middle' is not really my style, unless they need help. haha.


but it is really good to be the 'little one' among jo, sher and friends. each of them is one unique member of the group. all so different yet complementing each other. jo is one initiative member. hehe. i like. we were all saying that ss is the loner. no friends one ss. 'cause she always offend people. LOL. i think the rest of us who are left behind not offended by her are already immuned to her comments liao. lol. but i told them the real loner in terms of female friends will be valery. she has pathetically few female friends. i'm pretty surprised that ss knows that valery used to have a close friend called linda. ok. there's no need to pity valery soh. got such a good friend like me for her to bully, pity me more. LOL. anyway, those big sistas had bought me a very cute figurine from precious thots.


back to the 20 year old issue. i see no bright future or dreams in front. seeing my working friends work with no aims - that is what we will become in due time. at the age of 20, nobody tells me that i need to act responsibly or behave more matured. anything along that line. oh ya, got. sher say don't club so much i think. haha. i only receive instructions such as it is time to put on make up and buy burberry bags. lols. looks at my friends. tsk tsk tsk.


to me, it is time to reconsider my career now. yes, i should.














because of some issue now, i'm very sians. time to go somewhere with loud music. but i can't find anyone. and to some: if i asked but you don't want to go, please reply. dont let me fish you with sms. i hate people who don't reply. leave me hanging around for too long not knowing your decision, i'll hang you literally in the air.