phew. took about 3 hours to calm myself down. ha. got vast improvement ok. was so damn moody because someone ps me and i was so looking forward to it. i'm going to call it off.

so that day she asked, why is it that people are still not used to her working. i thought i'm already used to it but in fact, i'm not! haha. but i'm already trying very hard le what. only called twice with no answer, smsed 3 to 4 times and drop by for awhile only for about past two weeks. furthermore, big or small stuffs that happened for the week i also kept them to myself. let's keep it this way.

quite sure she'll disrupt my 'training' when august comes. ha. see how.







work and bf are two things that i pretty dislike. work and bf almost equal to no time for other things. ha. that's why i don't like to go work now and very sians of guys.



totally sian. dun dare to spend my pay now. 'cause i seldom go work. haha. don't feel like that pay belongs to me even though it is just a small amount. feels so.. 'fake'. i'm so scare of spending money not mine now. phobia. rather go starving than spending a cent out of it. even got the phobia of letting my mum pay for my sch fee. maybe over-independent results in it ba. the main thing that has been creating heavoc in me nowadays. FREAK.









great. moody makes me procrastinated my work. it is 230am now. hais. will sleep at 3 plus again. tml continue to be sian and be zombie.