ha. someone complaint that i must have been talking bad about him in my blog cause i refused to show him my blog. hm. i once read a book about girls should keep secret from their partners and i think it is really true. how can i show him my blog then? this is the only little secret place i can say everything out which include things that i don't want to let him know. =x haha.

sometimes i say say only, people take it seriously and usually is this case la. so, don't bother to let him knowww..... guys generally are petty..................... RIGHT?!


i feel like saying some stuffs here.. but.. there's always weird weird people who will come read my blog. for instance, swee san. =x haha. not weird la. just unexpected. of course, i don't mind her reading.

then if i set it to private.. it'll be very ma fan cause i also dunno who will come visit and kpo about me de. haha.







anyway, i think i totally set a different image in front of him.
1) i appear to club alot. it just happened that people were asking me. >.< i don't like the labelling of clubber but i didn't bother to explain. don't spoil my BAD image. LOL.
2) i said i don't play any sports which is not so true but i don't like sports now. sports only result in injury. tsk tsk tsk. i was disappointed by it.
3) i weren't as independent as i can be. keep on ask for his help in work.
4) i kept on disturbed and irritated him as much as i can. of course, bullying is inclusive. lolssss.
5) i remain as busy as possible when i don't mind / willing to spend more time with him.

i think i'm doing all those is because... maybe i'm subconsciously trying to make him go away. he's dealing with a busy girl whom he just know not long ago. i'm also trying to not be so good like people (guys) think i am. when i'm good and nice, i have to maintain. maintaining it means tired. when i'm bad, i have rooms for improvement. =) if not, i can remain 'bad' as and when i like it.

another reason will be i hope we're not in those 'dreamy r/s' whereby when couples just get together they think their partners are 'so perfect'. i give an example. if he hadn't know that i club before we get together, he'll think that i have changed when i 'suddenly' go to clubs after we get together. it'll be so dumb.

so far, still good. haha. his reactions and answers to my behaviours and 3 questions are still quite satisfactory. the 3 answers are firstly, we just know each other only but he suggested that we can spend more time to know each other. secondly, he understands i'm busy. thirdly, he promise to not be too petty.



i'll be good after i bully him enough enough. i promise! haha. sorry la. in the mood of bullying. i believe all my dear friends can vouch for me how good a person/friend/girlfriend i am right... haa.. ok, except for the bit about my temper. hehe.



i think he poor thing leh. if he offended me, he has no one to turn to for help cause he knows none of my friends. haha. cheers~