arghhhh.. i'm feeling so bored again! it takes a lot for maths to be boring for me. i think i hate re-capping ba. or is it that i'm feeling stress. come on! i'm already trying very hard. there's one more month. don't get stressed out now! FOCUS!

i will be doing FINE.
YES, I WILL.
It is all going to be FINE.

had been watching gossip girl season 2. totally not good for releasing stress for me. it just got me into the show and unable to focus my studies. i think i should quit watching it until after exam. it just revolves around "Blaire" trying to be the centre of attraction. episode 5 is kind of a short ending. have no idea what more stories can there be. i shall avoid it.

i think i just have to find other way to reduce stress. like watching cartoon or something..



anyway, on a side note, val's eyes are infected again. i seriously suspect that it is because of her contact lens. yea, but she won't be bothered. she wants good look more than any thing. i have to admit that i'm disappointed at her for this. she just like to live for this moment. no plans for the future.. nothing.

i will feel empty with no plans in my head. i can't lead that kind of life. probably, that's something that i will not understand. what i can infer is, this kind of people are avoiding being stressed out or they don't know how to plan or they are lazy. if not, they are cold-blooded enough to not even care about themselves.


i had been regarding my friends as an important part of myself till i get tired now. i think i shouldn't. now everyone has grown up. i believe they know what they are doing now. yes, they should. and who am i to worry for them?

'Chill.